I love my husband and our 3 kids. I couldn't imagine our life without them. I'm so blessed.

I like my new job. I forgot what it was like to enjoy my work. I guess I was on total burn out mode.

My friend asked me what I wanted out of life. Well it's not wealth. Everyday I look forward to going on vacation to spend time with my husband and kids.

My husband bought me a canon 12 megapixel rebel it's so sweet!!! It was that or alouis vutton

you know your a bad mother when you feed your daughter coffee ice cream and girl scout cookies LOL

I am sooo full.
Last night we made a homemade pumpkin pie with fresh pumpkin. You know cooking a real pumpkin and scraping the insides off to mash up. This fresh pumpkin pie tasted sooo delicious.

That's about it. i have babyitis. Myfriend's baby is soo cute, just 3 weeks old.

Im pretty disappointed about black friday ads. Theres nothing iwant to get up so early for. I think its all a waste.

Life is good. im thankful for everything

so A had her bday party and it cost us an arm and a leg. Seriously who spends that kind of money on their kid??? Crazy ppl like us....

Asides from that my hip/back/buttock/groin is killing me. I have adoctor's appointment on weds and maybe i will get some serious pain meds.

this pain is making me grumpy, irritable and anxious.

Other than that life is good. I love my husband and family.

I just went to my patient's garage sale fundraiser. Its so sad and he's so young. He's been hospitalized for 6 mos, he has 4 kids- 21, 18, 12 and 5 year old children. He's not that old but its soo sad.

Anyhow i ended up writing this large donation to his family and the ppl working the garage sale was shocked. i just like to think if i ever got sick, one of my patients would donate something nice. idk.

hahah my mil is trying to influence my lil girl about politics.

this is the first weekend i get to rest; no soccer game or idont have to work. yay!
i might clean my house cus its a wreck and thanksgiving is coming soon.

i cant wait til thanksgiving. 5 days off and iget to be with my husband for 2 of them. i miss him al the time:D
when im at work, he's off, when he's at work im off work. That's why i just work.

Today im going shopping. for no odd reason imight spend some money because i can.

shopping was horrible yesterday all halloween stuff was gone. Then again ireally didnt need anything- we mostly went shopping for my mil.

after A's soccer game, we went shopping got home around 530pm, then met my friends up at chuck e cheese. Got home at 930pm, and was in bed by 11pm. We were so exhausted. Poor chris he had to work and i got him up an hour early because ididnt realize it was daylight savings time. i feel like a horrible wife.

can you believe in april we will be married 6 years? wow eh? good things fly by so fast.

Today im having lunch with my friend and im not interested in working at the hospital. ughh the money is good but i really am not intersted in working more than i have to. Then again idid see this diamond bracelet for $2400 iwant. yeah right.

im soo tired ididnt realize it was daylight savings time or else i would of made my lil girlstay in bed longer this a.m. this totally sucks for me.

i want some dimsum
Im so tired from halloween it was sooo crazy yesterday. Hopefully next years halloween is on a sat so i wont have to work and traffic wont be as crazy.

Im so exhausted. my inlaw's neighbors built a haunted house all month and they were running it til 11pm last night. and i thought iwas too old for halloween.

i really miss my husband. when im at work he's home, when he's at work im home. it sucks we have parallel lives. but imiss him. and iwant to go to neworleans. maybe in jan or feb we might take a trip to new orleans and visit my sister.

today im shopping for halloween stuff at 50% off if theres anything left

i dont know why we are so slow at work all week except the one day i want to leave early- FRiday. TOday was soooo busy at work i wanted to scream.

Besides that i got off work at 3pm, went to dallas to pick up my daughter and drove back home. it took me 1 hr and 45 mins because of freaking traffic. I HATE traffic on halloween.

Asides from that, my 4 year old has been celebrating halloween for the past week. Took her to a pumpkinpatch on Sun and Weds, 2 halloween parties on thurs and tonight she will go trick or treating wtih some PT friends of mine, then go to a fall festival at church and trick or treat around my inlaw's neighborhood.

i dont feel like doing anything. i justwant to take a nap.

I just voted and my lil girl won her soccer game today. She has one more game next week and illbe glad when its over. You could say Im definately NOT the soccer mom; i dont like going outside and ireally dont enjoy taking her to gymnastic too.
i dont mind taking her to dance or school but when i have to sit outside on bleachers, idont like it.

im sick of her soccer and her soccer practice. yeah im real supportive hahah jk

Tonight we have a church picnic by the lake.
my neice is coming into town.
I have to work a few hours on Sunday, idont enjoy working anymore. I should enjoy it because everyone keeps calling me to work for them ughh..
i cant wait for thanksgiving. i really want some turkey, stuffing and pumpkin pie.

My mom is making me a cheesecake and some chinese blackbean spare ribs. YUM.

I had lunch with my friend from PT school. She married this guy who is totally selfish. I dated a few guys like that, probably worse than her husband except she married him and i was spared from that misery.
She's a super nice person and one of my closest friends here.

Then we went to whole foods, shopped at nordstroms and shopped some more. I havent had fun like that in years it feels like. i miss my old days of shopping with money idont have. That's when you know you've gotten old is when you are money savy. LOL.

Life is good......

so once again i ditched my second job. i really should work as much as i can for $65/hr. The market is good for me and getting paid $ 65/hr is so nice during these tough times.

so why am i so lazy?
:)
Its nice to come home to my husband and have dinner with my family.

i need to get a hosuekeeper cus my house looks like SH**. Its sooo messy.

TOmorrow is friday. Its about time. ive been waiting for you all week.

A's bday is coming up soon. Can you believe she will be 5 years old in nov? They grow up so fast. SHe wants her bday at sweet and sassy but $40/per child is exspensive. My mil wants to invite the whole world but have her bday at some park because its cheap. BUt my lil girl really wants it at sweet and sassy and im NEVER in amood for outdoors.

I think we should just invite like 4-5 friends and have it at sweet and sassy but i think its such a waste of money. I mean if i had it my way she would get a bday at mcdonalds like i had when iwas growing up.
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i was suppose to meet the PTA to work today but she stood me up. she could have enough decency to call to let me know she wasnt going to make it. its okay i really didnt want to work either.
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i stopped by the locan lebanese fall festival today and picked up some shishkabobs for my husband and met him at work. i told him he owes me C*ck big time tonight. :P
heheh
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i need to win the lottery i just dont want to work ever. i just want to stay at home and work out at the gym all day.
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i spent way too much this weekend. i spent $200 on groceries this weekend because i havent went REAL grocery shopping in 2 months.

Today i worked my second job and then i ate lunch with my inlaws. Then A and I took a nap at their house. Its almost 5pm and im waiting for her to wake up so we can go to my friend's house for dinner. My friend's mom is making shanghai small juicy steam dumplings, buns with chicken/egg in them, and a variety of other chinese dishes- all home made. Man, its soooooo good i should bring my camera.

C and I finally bought a big screen tv about six months ago and we just purchased a bose surround system. Its soooooooo NICE. All i want now is a kick a&& sewing machine and maybe a nice digital camera. That's it!

life is less stressful now and im only working my second job to help them out because they are in desperate need of a PT. their last PT quit 3 mos ago and its a tight market but good for me:)

So i took this new job. Better hours, almost the same pay and just as good benefits.
Ive been doing accupuncture because my flex spending account pays for it. Who knows if it will work.

Life has been better. Im not as stressed out but im still working two jobs until oct 1. after that i start my new job of 8-3pm m-f. Im not going to work hard anymore. Im just going to work my normal job and spend time with my family. Not to mention, i could see my lil girl do gymnastics, dance and pick her up from mommies day out with my husband. Plus if iwant to take off during the week, i can always work sat or sun.
its a really flexible job and less stress than my current job. my current job is good with good people; is a different social aspect with awesome perks. Like one patient gave me a chipper shredder, another sold me a lawnmower, a car, one pt came and fixed my electricity... etc.... and ontop of all that i get free sushi lunches twice a month.

This time around, i wont get any of those perks. None- no free sushi.

for some odd reason i gained two pounds this weekend. maybe its water weight and ive been eating healthy.

life is good... i still want a viking sewing machine but if i keep wanting and not buy it yet, maybe the urge to want one will fade and i just wont buy one after all. idont know.
Hopefully after i start this new job i will have alot of free time.

we're debt free. C said if i get a second job i can go back to nyc and buy myself an exspensive sewing machine for $1400.
So, i started working this extra job on the weekends. This weekend i worked 15 hours of prn work at $65/hr. You calculate the math:D
Its a nice job. Infact, they offered me a director's position there too, but im hesitant to do it.

i would really like the flexibility and hours. i could work m-f 8-3pm if iwanted to. I only want to work 30-32 hrs per week. Its alil more physical but less stressful mentally. Plus, iwould get off so early c and i could work out together and have dinner.

i just hate my long hours, but i love my current job. my current job is great, the ppl are great, my cowkrers are great and my bosses are good to me.
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That's about all that's going on with me.

I really miss the internet. iwish i had a comp and cable internet at my house.
I want to play something late at night when anxiety strikes.

Im so angry with my husband. Yes, i love him and i know he loves me; but he makes me sooooooooo ANGRY.

other than that, life is okay. i ve taken three weeks off for vacation these past two months. Im not ready to go back to work. i like being lazy.

Tomorrow we're having a bbq at my house. my dad wants to.

That's it.

So last night i almost had a nervous breakdown. I feel better that i went to the gym today. i need to work out more to beat stress. I have a fat gut (apple shape) and they said its because of stress. Increase levels of cortisol leave fat deposits around my waist area.

Anyhow, today at the gym some indian guy asked me out. he gave me his # and his email and still wanted to hang out even after i told him iwas married. hrmmm...

Its nice to feel attractive once in a while. Itsbeen a LONG time since someone tried to pick me up.

Tonight we're going to sanantonio- seaworld. I really dont want to go because we are tight with $ this month because of our vegas trip but i promised mygirls and my husband says I have to take them.

i love my husband, he's so sweet no matter how stressed i am and i want to break down and cry.
i feel bad that i feel so stressed out and overwhelm and i take it out on him.

I have so much crap to do. I need a vacation from a vacation. I lost $200 and my husband lost $300 in vegas. My sister won almost 1k.
We stayed 5 days in vegas and 1 day in laughlin. 5 days is more than enough and i felt really burnt out. It was nice because i still dont want to return back to work on Friday or even tomorrow. THis past week i had two job offers. I told them to call me back on Tues because its my half day of work.

i think im just burnt out from my job. I have had two weeks off already and i still dont want to return back to work.

we're going to sea world in august for a week. i want to burn thru all my pto.

It was really nice to see my dad's side. I havent seen them in sooo long. My dad's sister in laws are super super sweet, but my dad's sisters are biyatches. that's his side of the family.

im so fat now. i think i gained 10 lbs from vacation. All that lucky wishbone. Idont think we ate anything healthy except when i was at the buffets, i managed to eat the salad bar.

That's about it.

Ive been watching you are what you eat and im addicted to that show.

i actually got my coworkers into watching it on the bbc channel. My coworker's husband already lost 15lbs doing that diet. Im doing a 2 day detox diet to cleanse my congested liver(that's what the book says).

im soo hungry because i fell asleep around 4pm to 7 pm today after work. This week is a slow week at work because its july 4 and all my pts are on vacation.
I have a week off next week. Then i go back to work for 1 week and go on vacation again. Yes im taking 2 weeks off this july.

We just got back from new orleans. it was super fun and i ate so much i gained 2 lbs. That's why im doing the detox diet. ineed to be able to fit into that strapless dress i bought with my hollywood hustler lingerine.

O yeah we were in new orleans and i went to hollywood hustler. Man, i love that shop im addicted to lingerine and leather.